No Safe Place 3
Last night between midnight and one am a Starfish
crept through my dream of a beach in Maine. It was pale and
faded. I couldn’t feel it. Because the starfish is losing
its ability to function normally, dreams may have to
Starfish are Echinoderms, belonging to the class Asteroidea,
soon there will be
starfish only in certain tide pools located in certain
cool climates with freeflowing water. The starfish may not
exist in dreams.
will not know what happened to her.
Passports will be unavailable
for marine invertabrates.
Yesterday I spoke with another single
person about the numbness that happenes
with detachment and I thought of the starfish,
unable to attach, their tube feet operated by a hydraulic
system which is now obsolete just as human connection.
The Northern Pacific Sea Star is considered one of the 100
worst invasive species. Very comparable to what the
Human is and has done to our oceans and
all the other starfish.
No Safe Place 2
wet, moist ,damp, soggy,
only a lost commodity .
When I first tasted your skin
it was covered in water.
It was hard to describe but it was free.
Lakes are craters now.
A child asks “Who pulled the drain plug?” as
you drive by the empty, barren memory of a
There is deep sadness in the retreating
water leaving a reluctant
path of tears sinking into the dust,
searching for an oasis to nourish, water
and sees it’s vanishing.
Cries out to the lone red bird
perched on a burnt tree,
cries out to the cactus who needs no one,
cries out to
you and me who have forgotten water
Second Floor Window
People have always asked me
if I live alone? I think I must seem like
a pack animal. The urge to
gather warmth around me so obvious
to others but I remain oblivious.
From my own personal observation
my happiest times
are when I am alone reflecting
on the canopy of a tree, or
a glimmer of ocean from a second floor
window as the rare is infinitely more
than the commonplace.
Here in summer, many prefer the full on
blast of ocean houses carrying past their
boatloads of revelry or roars of lionlike
testosterone gargling along from the
Maserati’s of speed boats.
I have always
preferred the second or
third row of houses far enough from the
ocean to avoid the damaging sea spray and
near enough to catch a glimpse of shiny
out the second floor corner window while
standing on a low stool.
Last night no one knew if it was
the sun setting or the moon rising
but it was orange: hung there by a
wire moving around our sky, currents
of warm air lifting and lowering its round
shape enough to light the narrow, soft roads
crisscrossing the sandy summer peninsula.
One young woman pushing her
old cruiser bike silently, leaving Book Club late after
a chat about amphibians, taking the
long way home, blond hair falling in a
triangle down her back, white Keds glistening,
she thinks of fall when everyone will be gone
and suddenly there in the mist she becomes
invisable except for the sound of one repentant
bicycle spoke grinding it’s rhythm until she’s home.
I like young old men.
Men whose twinkle never faded like some
lust or the memory of really good vanilla ice
cream. I like the round muscle of their arms,
the temptation of golden skin,
and the quick way they look at me for
what seems like a long time while we are
kissing. Each time I open my eyes there
is that gaze, eyes so clear and full of intent.
I don’t know what to do with that gaze.
It never varies. I’m so unused to direct
and constant I’m checking it, closing my
eyes and then quickly opening them again
like a child thinking it will be gone. The kiss
goes on and on like undulating waves in
a warm climate with hopeful palm trees
that clap their fronds for any passion seen
I think it’s over but something like
one finger on my cheekbone
begins the spiral again.
It would not be sensible to want this
on a regular basis but everyone does.
Desire and to be desired.
We all wait.
A remembered afternoon in summer.
Shades of Gray
When you’re a child you think everyone tells the truth.
You think your mother and father will be together forever.
When you see your first divorce it’s kind of like seeing your first accident.
You can’t believe this could happen
Sometimes people stay together because they can’t stand to be alone.
They tell themselves it is for the children
but actually it’s to spare themselves pain.
Sometimes you think it’s better to lie and have maybe three or four different lives and after a while you don’t know which life is real for you.
I’ve known a lot of people like this.
Unfortunately more than one have wanted me to join in but the problem is I don’t see shades of gray.
I like black and white.
You are mine I am yours and that’s it.
Call me crazy but it’s a heck of a lot easier.
Yesterday a man held my hand so
powerfully I couldn’t tell after a while
as it seemed so right
that consistent pressure.
Normally I don’t like comfort in any form as
it embarrasses me like the chameleon
on lava or carnation, I pull away from
touch as I know the consequences.
But this time I stayed and cried.
It had been so long since I
In the gray half open eye period prior to
full alert status I feel a touch or maybe an
outstretched limb, a phantom connection
I may remember. Warm and wanting..
Delaying the awakening I dwell there
In hopeful desire among my fresh sheets,
memories of sun fragrant and salt drying,
my fingers on your chest, lightly, sensing
your heart which in these dreams is
still faithful to us, your family.
It is dark nearly all of the time.
People have forgotten the feel of water.
Lifetimes have shortened
Partners are assigned
The dictionary has been revised.
So many words no longer exist,
Joy, Hope, Heart ,Listen, Compassion,
Friendship, Cookie, Sunshine, Language
The past disappeared so rapidly that
Forgot to transcribe itself.
There are no more Buddhists.