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November 22, 2009 at 4:13 pm
· Filed under becoming poor, economy,fear,rules, healing,abandonment,peace,love,, independence, save your money for a while, world

There is something very inspiring about an empty planter. Sometimes I leave planters unfilled for an entire season. This is disturbing to many and inspiring to others.I like the looks of this empty red planter because it looks as if it has been empty for a long time. This morning in the Times there is an article about the economy which suggests the stock market can be turned around by a national mental condition of positive thinking. That is, if a larger group of investors believes the market is on an upswing, it will be on one. I can understand this theory as it seems logical to me. However, I do not believe we should count on this theory to save our necks in todays economy. I do believe we are all still frightened about what is going on. We have never seen an unemployment rate as high as ours which is frightening. We have also never seen such a high rate of debt. I have no idea where to invest in the future nor in the present. Some say we should be investing at least 40% of our net worth outside the country. I believe that may be true but still have no idea where we should invest. Is China a good bet? Shall we bet on the future of Brasil or is India the place to look ? Scandinavia is also looking good to some. So back to the theory of stock market swings and the emotional state of investors. What if the emotional state of americans is positively affecting the market and causing the Dow to rise as it has over the past 6 months?Now it is winter and in winter the truth always comes out. There are still many foreclosures and in some state the rate is rising not falling. People are filling the malls and buying things they don’t need for holiday gifts. Credit card debt is rising rapidly. A friend of mine recently lost her line of credit as the issuing bank canceled it claiming she had not paid the monthly fee on time. She claimed she had and protested the decision but to no avail. In the paper this morning there is also an article about a bank that changed its billing envelope to one without any markings. It was thrown out by many customers and the bank then collected late fees for balances due that were not paid. What is going on now? Is there a kind of game happening in the world of banks and credit card companies where the point is to trick the consumer out of their money so you win more money? This is a really paranoid way to think but what if it is true? What role would the government play in such a game?
I am disturbed about the way things are going and worried about our country. I think many people want to recession to be over because they have no attention span for deprivation. It is much more fun to spend what you want on things you really don’t need. It is easier and faster to go out and buy things rather than to look inside yourself and discover what fills the void without spending money. That’s my task for today. I am heading out to the paths in our neighborhood to find beauty and serenity and see if it makes me happy. I am hoping glances at the beauty of California will make me deeply satisfied with my Sunday. I hope it works as I am no better than anyone else. A visit to Nordstroms is better than vanilla ice cream.
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October 15, 2009 at 1:41 am
· Filed under dogs, family, fun, single life, world

I made it
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October 13, 2009 at 10:22 pm
· Filed under family, independence, single life, world ·Tagged road trip
I can understand why my Grandfather wanted to get out-of-town now that I am in it. Don’t get me wrong, I love New York! The drive here from Connecticut took all of four hours and was pretty much the same scenery all the way once I had crossed the Tappan Zee Bridge. I listened to NPR and wondered why I was doing this until I saw my “sign” . If you wonder what I mean about “sign” just read my last blog. In this case my “sign ” was a road sign saying “Promises Fulfilled Valley.It was all I could do not to let myself steer off the highway as I thought maybe there might be a promise for me in that valley.
This part of New York State struggles between true poverty and weird business. There are some farms left here but most seem to be gone. There are a lot of discount malls advertised on the highway. The towns are factory towns and Painted Post is not really either one. I stopped in Corning as I was tempted by the Radisson Hotel’s “Sleep Number ” beds as the one lone motel in PP didn’t sound inviting. At the front desk of the Radisson I was treated with courtesy and given a room with not one but two “sleep number” beds. I plan on pretending to be Goldilocks tonight and trying them both.
I think I know why I am here but I can’t be certain. I want to discover why my grandfather decided to be a great success. I want to understand where that desire came from and all the discipline to fulfill his dream. I would like to know what his original dream was and where it came from. Of course I know I won’t be able to figure all of this out in one night but making the trip is a beginning. It is a way to pay homage to the man who built IBM and a way to see what his life was like as a child. The light in Steuben County hasn’t changed much in the 130 years since my Grandfather was born: the harsh, blue/white of the sky still fades softly into the good night of the hills around the town. The bite of approaching winter is felt in the air and the people here still work hard.
Tomorrow I will find the Watson Homestead and walk on the land where my relatives worked and lived.
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October 13, 2009 at 12:44 pm
· Filed under family, fun, independence, single life, world ·Tagged IBM
I am always surprised at how late the sun is these days. For some reason I am having a hard time sleeping and I toss and turn until about 3:30 AM at which point I go to sleep. When Rosie wakes me at 6:30 it seems way too soon to be getting out of bed as the sky is still dark and there are no bird sounds whatsoever.This morning was no exception. I feel like staying in bed and I wonder why I am even making the effort to drive to Painted Post. What sort of “Eureka!” moment am I hoping for? An explanation for my life, I think, and this is why I reach for a new watch to wear during my expedition. I carefully remove my very chic watch and strap on my Timex Expedition. I am smiling as I do this. Isn’t it great I have found this watch in my closet? It must be a sign I am doing the right thing.Signs are important in our family. My Grandfather took it as a sign he should never drink alcohol again after his horse and buggy with his samples in it was stolen outside of a tavern where he was celebrating a sale. He took it as another sign he should never fly after the plane his family was going to fly in at a county fair crashed. They had decided at the last minute to get ice cream and had given up their turn. My grandparents always took ocean liners to Europe and my grandfather never flew again. My father had a lot of signs as well. Once when we were on a deserted island in Maine my father became convinced he had heard the voice of a woman calling out to him. He had all of us searching the island for the invisible voice in order to find the source. When no one was found he remained convinced it was something from another world. I think it was . There is a lot of psychic energy running through our group! I have often dreamed about events in future and not been surprised when they happen. sometimes I see information in my head as if I am watching a film when I work on a client.I am pretty much right on most of the time.
I think the Mormons are right to send their young church members on a mission in the world. I should have been sent to Painter Post years ago. Maybe along the highway I would have seen a sign directing me to the right future. Maybe a farmer’s market in western New York state would have brought me a vision as to what I should be doing or knowing. It is interesting in life how most of us don’t get the chance to try anything new. Most of us have to go to work in the same job daily which we are grateful for particularly today. Most of us stay married to the same person and have children and grandchildren along the way. Life is like the concentric circles written about with patterns happening in lives that spread in the same pattern out into the world: ripples from a stone thrown into a still pond. My life has been about throwing stones into different ponds and creating new circles in each one. This isn’t good or bad, just the truth. Yesterday I was having lunch with a friend and I remarked that my life was pretty much ready for me to shape it again as I wouldn’t have grandchildren to enjoy for a few years and I was lucky enough to have the freedom to do whatever I wanted.
Some people think I am spoiled when they read something like this. I think I am spoiled in material resources, but I would protest I am not spoiled in my belief system.
In our family we learned early on we were supposed to sing for our supper and “leave every campsite better than we found it.” We also learned that “It’s hard but it”s fair” and “When the going gets tough, the tough get going”.My father’s favorite book was “Cheaper by the Dozen” and he believed that negotiating a better price for six children for almost anything was the highlight of his day. I read recently in the new book about my family my mother persuaded my father early on in their marriage practical jokes were not a good idea. This is not a true statement as I could recount many practical jokes my father enjoyed during our lives. His favorite holiday was Halloween as it meant he could resurrect an old bear costume that must have lived in mothballs in our attic for years. Even though we knew it was him under all that fur we always screamed in terror when he jumped out from behind a curtain in our breakfast room. Never content with just one jump. he would go back behind the curtain numerous times until he collapsed in laughter on the floor. I think we thought this behavior was somewhat strange but acceptable as it wasn’t unusual. My parent’s generation was always having costume parties and loved dressing up.Once my mother invented a game for her dinner party where she paired off each guest with someone they were not married to. She gave the couple a paper bag with some material, straight pins, and a pair of scissors, instructing them they had 30 minutes for the man to design a costume on the woman. Unfortunately the housekeeper quit the next morning as she had overheard one man saying to his partner she must remove her dress or her couldn’t be really creative.
Another friend of my parents had a baby party and all the guests arrived dressed as babies. They entered the house via a children’s slide which had been moved to the front door and drank martinis from baby bottles. By the end of the night I think the hosts wished for a group of babysitters to arrive and straighten things out. Anyway I think my parent’s generation had more fun that the generations since. I say lets revive these traditions and fill up our costume closets!
It’s only 8:27 here and I have to wait until 10:00 AM to leave on my trip as my camera is broken and I need one to document all of my adventure up north. And that reminds me…why in the world did my Dad love Charlie Chaplin so much? We saw every single film of his and many, many times over. My father loved films and had a closet turned into a film room which had a projection window made of glass enabling the projector to shine the film through the window while the audience couldn’t hear the rustle of the projector .We sat on the floor of our living room and watched these silent films for what seemed like hours. Sometimes we watched family films where my mother was always the star with her lovely face and glamorous gestures. My mother had been a model before she married my father and she had no money. She had three blind dates in her life and ended up marrying the third. The first two were with Jimmy Stewart and Jack Kennedy. She had a bit part in a film in Hollywood when she was 20 called “Vogues of 1938″ and my father destroyed the copy of the film after they married as he was a jealous man! My mother loved to tell the story of her return from Hollywood where she had been paid $1000.00 in cash for her movie appearance. She jumped on her bed throwing all the cash around her and felt very rich and happy. The next day she came down with appendicitis and had to use the money for an operation. My mother had a great attitude in life and seemed to enjoy herself no matter what was happening.
Time to finish packing .
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September 24, 2009 at 1:18 am
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September 21, 2009 at 12:00 pm
· Filed under love styles, world ·Tagged world traveler
Pretending to be French is fun! Probably more fun that being American though that can be fun as well. There was a slice of almond bark in the ice tea I’m drinking and I highly recommend this addition as it is very flavorful. Pretending should be a part of everyone’s day as it makes one happy. I often pretend I am somewhere other than where I am but in Paris there is no point to doing that as why would you want to be anywhere else? I learned a lot on this trip. The biggest lesson was to watch how someone behaves without needing them to behave in a certain way. In doing this I learned how happy I am just accepting what others have to give and not wanting more. I could write on and one about this but I think I will let it be. The quality of the gift is enhanced when there is no need in the receiver.
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September 18, 2009 at 5:50 am
· Filed under world ·Tagged Paris
Wow! Am I glad I bought this book on my new Kindle as it is the perfect book to have with you on a trip to Paris. The Kindle is also a great thing to travel with. I never thought I would break down and get one but as a traveler who likes to have a few books in her suitcase I find the Kindle amazing. I “brought” five books with me on this trip , have finished two , and will return with all five! Usually I feel happy to toss away the ones I read along the way to friends and then miss them once I am home. My daughter said she wouldn’t want a Kindle as she likes to underline in the books she reads but there is a feature for that in the Kindle. Anyway, back to David’s book. I have no idea how I found this book but I am very glad I did. I have savored reading it as one savours a delicious chocolate mousse or a light and frothy cheese souffle. It is a delight to the eyes as well as to the taste buds. Interspersed between reflections on life in Paris and the customs of the French are amazing recipes that make your mouth water. I read the book all through the night last night and had to raid the mini bar at three in the morning from hunger pangs.What I really loved about the book were the suggested behaviors to those traveling in France. The best tip to me was the importance of greeting a shop person immediately upon entering a store in France. One tends not to do this out of an awkwardness with speaking French but once you master this art your experience in the shop becomes a very different one.I put this behavior to the test yesterday and was rewarded immediately with a happy understanding between the shop keeper and myself. A recognition we were both from the same correct and respectful place. I was sorry to finish up the last few pages this morning but happy to know it is available to me at the touch of the Kindle awake switch! That’s it for now from a happy woman in Paris.
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August 21, 2009 at 7:56 am
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Lying in my cozy bed this morning reading the paper I came upon a headline I thought I had dreamed up. “Freed Lockerbie bomber greeted as hero at home”. As I read the article I realized Scotland had released the bomber, Abdel Baset al-Megrahi, on “compassionate” grounds as he was ill with prostate cancer. Will someone please explain to me why Scotland would decide to be compassionate towards a man who had cold bloodily murdered 270 people? The mother of Diane Maslowski and the mother of Theodora Cohn certainly do not view this release as compassionate. I would assume they view it as insane . What in the world are we doing releasing this man and allowing him to return to Libya where he is greeted with scattered rose petals and a large crowd of young men applauding him. Something is wrong here. I do not understand this act of complete and total disregard for the lives he ended on this earth and the pain he caused the families left behind. How could Scotland, a country normally viewed as a pleasant vacation spot, make this decision? How can the world allow this to happen? Why would we make a gesture appeasing Libya which is one of the most violent nations in the world?
The other day I was looking into the darkest parts of my psyche which I try not to do very often and thinking about the constant articles about overcrowding in the California prison systems. I realized I could care less about criminals in the California prison system and have no interest in reading articles about their physical conditions. I think they should rot in prison and I think the more violent their crime is, the less pleasant their environment should be. I think people who harm other people for no reason should be punished without compassionate thought. There! I have revealed my true nature. I hate violent crime and think we should treat it much more harshly. Mugging someone is not O. K. Killing someone is not O.K. Raping and murdering an eight year old child is a crime so heinous to me I can’t even imagine the punishment I would come up with if it were up to me.
The release of Abdel Baset al-Megrahi is also a crime of sorts. It is a crime because it forces the families of the victims to face yet another emotional loss. The loss of the knowledge this man was being punished for the violent act he committed against their loved ones. Whoever made the decision to release this man made it without consulting with their conscience. If this is the direction the world is going in I am disgusted with it. Pandering to criminals regardless of their crime is insane and useless and should be stopped. Unfortunately in this situation, the damage has been done. I hope the public outcry over this release prevents any future releases of this sort from happening. I hope our leaders go back to the kind of decision making that used a conscience as guidance rather than an empty gas tank.
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